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“Is it true you are here just to help maintain my sanity?” I asked. I had slowly pieced that together. From what I had figured out, LineGods like Proud occasionally interfaced with ‘acting agents’ or whatever we were called. In situations like this, the time loops can be so mentally breaking that the agent does not ever act correctly so the LineGod interface is created. What I was not sure of was if the fact Proud was here meant I would not have ever gotten out of this on my own, or if she was a ‘reward’ of sorts, or what exactly.
“One of my reasons.” She was swinging her legs off the bench like a little girl.
“It fucked me up for a long time the first couple times we had sex, or I tried killing you.”
Her face was sad as she looked downwards. The bow and her long green hair hid her face. “Yeah, I felt so bad for you during that time.”
“I used to think ‘why the hell is this girl here, she is only making it worse.’ I see that’s not the case now.”
She smiled at me. “I am glad. I am only here to help.”
“I see that now. Most of what I do is to eventually get out of here, and on some level to help you because I care about you.”
I looked at her and thought back to the myriad of thoughts I once had about her. She was a manifestation of some universal will in a way that would most synch with me. It was disturbing at first, maybe a touch of shame to see my perfect embodiment of a female in physical form, but given her tailored traits I quickly came to like her.
“For a long time I stayed distant from you because I felt like it was this ultimate manipulation. Something crafted just for me, in a way to be this trap I would fall for. Like I was some dumb animal lured in by an intriguing girl.”
“You were harder to convince than some others. Your skepticism was an advantage as well as a clear negative in terms of us having a good harmonic rate.”
I grabbed her hand, and we held hands as we watched the ducks swim around. “What I realized, and this is hard to state, is that you were just a ‘child’ of the universe much in the same way as I was. You are much more so, but you were not the universe, so much as just this thing it spit out. Haha, that sounds so bad.”
She laughed too. “It’s okay.”
“But that you were a person – sort of – like me that was stuck in this. You were the only one who knew what was going on. The only one I could talk to, even if you couldn’t answer everything I asked. You became my friend, the only one I could turn to.”
“That was kind of the point! Of course I was here to help your mind, and to eventually have you do the right thing to break this loop.”
“What happens when we break out of it?”
“Don’t know, never happened!”
It made me laugh a little. “Are your Chrono Senses perfect?”
“That is a weird question to me, but as you understand it, yes. I see all the paths that we can take. However, there is a break that occurs, and of course, until we break out of this, I cannot see the next cycle. It is a pretty strange thing for me.”
“Are you…uh, hard to say, but like have you done this before?”
She shook her head, giggling; she seemed like a kid again to me. “No, this is the first time I have been created, so you are my first.”
I sighed a bit. “Good, I don’t feel as stupid.”
“I am part of the Line, so I was vaguely aware before this, but as an individual, no this is completely new to me. I have had a very good time with you. I feel quite lucky to have been granted creation!”
“Anyway, I think I have most of this ready to go. I got a few key players into position, and I have made it into ReCorp a few times but also get killed pretty early. I have not tried in a long time, and got a lot of training with Mitreah, and some tactics from that old guy. I guess we are going to figure out if I can make this stop fairly soon.”
The wind blew and some of the mist hit us. It felt cold. Real.
I continued, “I am glad I met you Proud, you have been fun to get to know. If it ends, and you are gone, or I die, I am still happy to have met you. To go through this with, as dark as it has been.”
“Don’t talk like that.” She separated her hand from mine and rubbed my hair. I leaned into her and let her continue massaging my head. I was happy to feel her hands on me. Her soft fingers played over my eyes, going through my scalp, and just the nice feeling of her stomach and ribs methodically breathing.
“It is getting late,” she began, “are you going to end it?”
“No, I want to spend all the time with you.”
“Okay. Me too.” She tickled my chest, bringing her finger up and down. I kept my eyes closed so I would not know. I only kept focusing on the nice feelings before I was hit with the most tremendous pain imaginable for a few short moments.